too much pain..

What would you feel if the one you loved before is now close to one of your closest friends and you still have feelings for him? What if your closest friend looks as if she and the guy you think you love now have a mutual understanding? I know that it's very complicated, but believe it or not this is my life now.. Friends and loved ones... OMG!!! *sigh... it's sad to think that sometimes we have to choose between love and friendship.. But of course, friendship must always come first.. But what if you can't choose? What if you choose one of them and find out that you are so wrong?

This is sad.. very sad actually.. and confusing.. I'd better figure out the solution soon.. But for now, I'll leave this here..